Or will we end up getting hurt

"And now there are two doors in front of me, but I have absolutely no idea which to open. I've walked through one and seen amazing wonders, but it was so perfectly structured - all the lines and boxes - it bored me. It made me frustrated and unhappy, and I had to walk out again. There was a tinge of regret in me when I walked out, and it soon became so large, it engulfed me. Now I'm looking at the other door, hesitating and deliberating. I've taken a peek and it was amazing, but I'm not sure if it'll end up all the same - it's always been that way, anyway."

I just want to be happy :(

Need to run need to run need to run. Need to get those frustrations and confusions outta my poor little head. Need to lose some weight and see a nice number on my weighing scale. Need to stop procrastinating and mug harder if I want my ideal gpa. Need to stop waiting. Need to get my sanity back. Need to stop caring so freaking much and hurting myself, too.

I don't want to play mind games anymore. They're energy-draining, not that I have much of any energy after all these weeks of school. Feeling so shagged every single day and yet I can't seem to sleep in class lol #nerdified :s

Starting to miss so many things and starting to regret so many decisions. All the decisions I've made are pretty much equivalent to suicide lol.