Parallel Universe

I wanted to blog on the last day of my holidays (which already seem so far away), I wanted to blog on the first day of school, and when that failed, the second, and now it's the third and I finally have some time to even switch on my laptop. So hiiiii, Szeying is currently stressed out and sick. In fact, I just figured out that the reason why I fell sick the day before school started might just be all these stress. I keep telling myself that it's gonna be worth it in the end but I can't help but feel that I need a breather. I need to walk away and have some time for myself.

And you know what I learnt from all this? I learnt the importance of appreciation, and how people almost never exercise it. At the end of the day people thank you for your effort and things like that, but what about during the process? I'm really upset about this and I guess it's not appropriate for me to talk about it here, but yeah I've been trying so hard and all I need is just some understanding. I mean, if you signed up for this, you should have been prepared for it, right? It doesn't even make sense that this is happening right now.

Yeahhhh I probably sound like some cranky person now, and literally I do too because I lost my voice for the first time in my life and it's actually pretty cool to listen to myself sometimes. Hope everything gets better with time because so far, 2012 really sucks. Only 11 days and I've realised that I've trusted you too much. Way too much than you deserve. Which leads me to my new year resolution, to stop trusting people so easily. Or rather to learn to keep things to myself because I seem to be incapable of that :(

HAVE TO GET BACK TO WORK. Till next time!