Reminder to self

1. Do not take anything for granted.
2. People can think what they want, but if you know your conscience is clear, it's okay.
3. Focus on the positive side of things too.
4. You deserve to be happy.
5. Happiness doesn't come by so easily. Don't let it slip away.

So come on let it go / Just let it be

Why don't you be you / And I'll be me

For the first time

And we don't know how we got into this mess it's a God's test
Someone help us 'cause we're doing our best
Trying to make it work but man these times are hard

Oh these times are hard
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby

Night changes

We're only getting older baby

And I’ve been thinking about you lately

Does it ever drive you crazy

Just how fast the night changes

Everything that you’ve ever dreamed of

Disappearing when you wake up

But there’s nothing to be afraid of

Even when the night changes

It will never change me and you

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心一跳　愛就開始煎熬

每一分　每一秒

火在燒　燒成灰有多好

叫思念　不要吵

我相信我已經快要

快要把你忘掉

跟寂寞　再和好

我相信我已經快要

是真的我快要

快要可以微笑

去面對　下一個　擁抱

Maybe I'm not that kind of beautiful

“Maybe I’m not that kind of beautiful
dressed in red lipstick and black eyeliner.
I’m not beautiful in the sense of
defined cheekbones, full lips,
curvy hips, and shapely legs.
I’m not beautiful like the sunsets kissing the sky,
the stars outlining evening wishes,
the freshly picked flowers,
and the softly murmured I love you’s.
So maybe I’m the kind of girl
with pale lips and dull eyes.
But I hope someday,
someone kisses the sunsets on my chapped lips
and outlines the stars on my cheekbones.
I hope he waters the flowers beneath the flaws on my skin
and screams I love you’s because his love for me
is meant not to be kept in secret drawers,
but to be plastered in the sky,
on waters, and in the wind.
I hope he loves
the no make up, flawed,
clumsy, and awkward
kind of beautiful.”

(By Natasha)

Obsession // Valentine's Day

Recently I acquired an obsession with my new closet. IT HAS A MIRROR FOR A DOOR. So thankful I didn't listen to my mum and get two frosted glass doors instead of one frosted and one mirror, because she said fengshui has it that your mirror shouldn't face the bed. I insisted on getting the mirror with some doubts growing in my head... And guess what?

I simply slide the frosted glass door over the mirror one every night. #problemsolved #geniusorwhat

^^^^ I ALTERED THIS DRESS YUP. Didn't know I had such a talent for sewing hehehehehehhe

Sorry about the doll in the background, it's not mine...

Sometimes I still don't understand everything - how I feel, why I feel this way and whether this feeling will change; but I think for now, I should learn to cherish the present. I guess it's hard after you'e been through it all, to believe that tomorrow will be better. It's hard because you have realised there are all the possibilities, and you have also experienced every one of them. But for now, thank you :-)

And also something that I find very apt - it's old, but it's good.

不算什么 爱错就爱错

早点认错 早一点解脱

Peek-a-boo

Just do it

All time favourite

I've been sitting here staring at the clock on the wall

And I've been laying here praying, praying she won't call

It's just another call from home

And you'll get it and be gone and I'll be crying

And I'll be begging you, baby, beg you not to leave

But I'll be left here waiting with my heart on my sleeve

Oh, for the next time we'll be here

Seems like a million years and I think I'm dying

What do I have to do to make you see she can't love you like me?

Why don't you stay? I'm down on my knees

I'm so tired of being lonely, don't I give you what you need?

When she calls you to go, there is one thing you should know

We don't have to live this way, baby, why don't you stay?

You keep telling me, baby there will come a time

When you will leave her arms and forever be in mine

But I don't think that's the truth

And I don't like being used and I'm tired of waiting

It's too much pain to have to bear to love a man you have to share

Why don't you stay? I'm down on my knees

I'm so tired of being lonely, don't I give you what you need?

When she calls you to go, there is one thing you should know

We don't have to live this way, baby, why don't you stay?

I can't take it any longer but my will is getting stronger

And I think I know just what I have to do

I can't waste another minute after all that I've put in it

I've given you my best, why does she get the best of you?

So next time you find you wanna leave her bed for mine

Why don't you stay? I'm up off my knees

I'm so tired of being lonely, you can't give me what I need

When she begs you not to go, there is one thing you should know

I don't have to live this way, baby, why don't you stay

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This does not apply to my current situation but it's one of my favourite songs. So emotional and so... powerful. I know of people who can't appreciate this one but I just love it. I love how the lyrics captured my attention the very first time I heard it; and I love how it comes from a different perspective that we would never put ourselves in.

I'm all against cheating but who knew that a third party could be so pained if she was just truly, purely in love?

With a smile, we can conquer the world

IT'S BEEN A REALLY BUSY WEEK.

Monday: Physics consol + preparation for H3
Tuesday: H3 Oral Defence + dance + revision for Econs
Wednesday: Econs lecture test + SSEF mock quizzing + attempt to catch up on Physics and Math tutorials
Thursday: Revision for Chem
Friday: Chem lecture test + SSEF briefing at Science Centre + Talentime in school

Thing is... I don't actually feel worn out because there were so many things going on. I actually still feel pretty alive!!! I think it's because I try to sleep by 11.30PM every night :) And it's working wonders!! Of course, let's not forget that I sleep on the bus every time I go to/return from school. 2 hours worth of bonus sleep everyday! And then there were those chocolates that helped me get through the days too... I've been gaining weight hehehehe oops too much chocolate intake!

And the best meal of the week:

The scallop is fake and I highly suspect it's made of flour but the fish makes up for it :) A new love for fish, especially dory! It sounds so cruel to the poor little fishes but... You guys are yummy hehehehehe

Just looked through the photos of all the food and I realised I'm so unhealthy... But YOLO right?

I'm the happiest when I have enough food and sleep ^__^

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'Cause you're everywhere to me

And when I close my eyes it's you I see

You're everything I know that makes me believe

I'm not alone

'Cause you're everywhere to me

And when I catch my breath it's you I breathe

You're everything I know that makes me believe

I'm not alone

12 Types and Examples of Distorted Thinking

from neurolove

Mind Reading - When you make assumptions about what somebody is thinking or feeling without them telling you. In reality, you are delusional or paranoid.

Catastrophize - when you over think a problem and the effects that they will actually have on you. For example, when you think that losing a relationship means the end of your life when really you can find someone new the next day or down the line.

Filtering - when you only pay attention to one side of things. For example, you only remember the bad times you had in school and not the good ones.

Polarized thinking - when you think of things as either black or white or good or bad. For example, there can only be good or bad people or success or fails.

Personalization - when you take everything too personally. For example, when you think that everything people do or say is some kind of reaction to you.

Blaming - when you hold other people accountable for your problems. For example, you blame someone else for causing you to make a bad decision. In actuality, you were the one who made the wrong call based on your own judgement.
Being Right - You feel the need to prove that your opinions or actions are correct. For example, you neglect other people’s perspective in an argument.

Should’s - when you place sets of rules on yourself. For example, you think that you should go out whenever your friend asks you to.

Emotional Reading - When you use your emotions to make a decision or judgement. For example, you buy into a product because of how good it was marketed when really the product is not that good.

Fallacy of Change - when you think others should change for you and that your happiness depends on them changing. For example, you expect that person to stop being a jerk because you are being nice to them.

Heaven’s Reward Fallacy - when you expect that all your sacrifices or hard work to pay off. For example, you think that if you work hard enough, you should get a reward.

Overgeneralization - when you carry a problem over to other domains. When you fail a math test, you think that you are not good with anything to do with numbers.

The Signs Falling/Being in Love

from neurolove

Aries: Appetite Loss - All you think about is him or her. Producing more dopamine, you feel little need for food or other basic necessities while floating through each day on a cloud of hope.

Taurus: Abandon Regular Routines - You may abandon your work or your responsibilities. Your thoughts and actions become devoted to your love interest.

Gemini: Fresh Complexion - You feel different and it shows. Others might catch you smiling or blushing for no apparent reasons.

Cancer: You Think of that Person as Perfect - You project your idea of the perfect one onto them and you overlook their weaknesses or flaws.

Leo: You Upgrade Your Looks - You care more about how you dress or look. You may start thinking of the small things that you can do to make yourself look better for them.

Virgo: You Daydream - You begin thinking about the future with this person. Your imagination creates vivid scenarios of romantic getaways, cozy chats, exciting adventures, and feel-good moments.

Libra: You Build an Addiction - You always want to communicate with them and when they don’t communicate back, you start to worry. You spend most of your time analyzing every word and punctuation mark in each conversation to make sure that they’re interested and committed.

Scorpio: You feel better about life - You begin to wonder where this person has been all your life, and why the two of you never found each other sooner. All of life’s disappointments, frustrations and losses will not compare anymore.

Sagittarius: You Get Jealous Easily- You hate it when other people talk to them and you hate it when other people spend time with them. You miss them when they are not around and become irritated.

Capricorn: You Find Their Quirks Cute, not Annoying - You don’t really mind their bad habits, but in fact find them attractive.

Aquarius: You Talk About Them - You secretly tell your friends about them and become excited for your friends or family to meet them.

Pisces: You Support them- You find yourself standing up for them when others are against them. You try to become useful to them and help them where ever possible.

"Jokes"

We're beautiful like diamonds in the sky

Currently addicted to:

I know Good Time is not that new but it's the first time I'm watching the mv and Carly Rae Jepsen is so pretty!!!! I love girls with fair skin and pink lips, they just look so pretty!

I don't know why I feel this panic inside me - is it because I haven't really achieved what I had set out to achieve a few days ago when I did some reflection? I don't know but I'm trying very hard to brush off these feelings because I should give myself some time to relax after all that pw is over. But well to be exact it will only be over tomorrow because our ST wants to film us one last time T_T

Content lectures start tomorrow so please let me absorb as much as I can!

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Sometimes it's not about going out on the best adventure, or organising the most exciting date. Sometimes it's just about spending a peaceful day, doing things that are simple and yet make you happy. It could be light shopping, a simple meal or even just sitting in silence, enjoying each other's company. And sometimes, the most perfect days are days like that.

Had a simple and nice impromptu shopping date today. I've learnt that even if a day starts out not the way you planned it to be, there are still chances that it will end off on a perfect note :)

"Don't you think it's miraculous that after so long we still feel so strongly about each other?"
"For me it's not about 'still' because I feel more for you as time passes."
:)

Six degrees of separation

Six degrees of separation (also referred to as the "Human Web") refers to the idea that everyone is at most six steps away from any other person on Earth, so that a chain of, "a friend of a friend" statements can be made to connect any two people in six steps or fewer.

Benjamin Button

And that's how it all started

x

Can you blow my whistle baby

Sevenly is an organisation that sells different apparels every week, and these apparels are sold to raise awareness about a cause (i.e. a different cause every week). For every apparel sold, $7 will be donated to the charity of the week. I personally feel that this is really a brilliant idea, and I would say to fight for a cause that you truly believe in. After all, doing charity is not a trendy thing that should be done because it means that you're a good and morally upright person. 

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Thought of the week: sometimes when people try too hard to define their own style, it becomes rather pretentious.

It's too hard to keep up to expectations, so I have decided not to do that. I am going to make them what I am going to do instead of thinking of them as 'something people expect of me', because things that are expected of you are often associated with the impossible. Which brings me back to the point that nothing is impossible, so the point that expectations are impossible to be met is moot anyway. This is going in a circle hmm what am I talking about

Right. Life is getting busy and I'd like to think of it as a challenge thrown my way; and challenges are meant to be overcome :)

50 Ways To Say Goodbye

My heart is paralyzed

My head was over sized

I'll take the highroad like I should

You said it's meant to be

that it's not you, it's me

You're leaving now for my own good

That's cool, but if my friends ask where you are

I'm gonna say

She went down in an airplane

Fried getting suntanned

Fell in a cement mixer full of quick sand

Help me, help me, I'm no good at goodbye

She met a shark on the water

Fell and no one caught her

I returned everything I ever bought her

Help me, help me, I'm all out of lies

And ways to say you died

My pride still feels the sting

You were my everything

Someday I'll find a love like yours (a love like yours)

She'll think I'm super man

Not super mini van

how could you leave on Yom Kippur?

That's cool, but if my friends ask where you are

I'm gonna say

She was caught in a mudslide

Eaten by a lion

Got run over by a crappy purple Scion

Help me, help me, I'm no good at goodbye

She dried up in the desert

Drowned in a hot tub

Danced to death in an east side night club

Help me, help me, I'm all out of lies

And ways to say you died

I wanna live a thousand lives with you

I wanna be the one you're dying to love

But you don't want to

That's cool, but if my friends ask where you are

I'm gonna say

That's cool, but if my friends ask where you are

I'm gonna say

She went down in an airplane

Fried getting suntanned

Fell in a cement mixer full of quick sand

Help me, help me, I'm no good at goodbye

She met a shark on the water

Fell and no one caught her

I returned everything I ever bought her

Help me, help me, I'm all out of lies

She was caught in a mudslide

Eaten by a lion

Got run over by a crappy purple Scion

Help me, help me, I'm no good at goodbye

She dried up in the desert

Drowned in a hot tub

Danced to death in an eastside nightclub

Help me, help me, I'm all out of lies

And ways to say you died