The past few months have taught me one big lesson, which is that people are always going to talk regardless of what you do, and whether they really know anything. I guess that leaves us with the only option of looking to ourselves and making sure we are happy with what we have.
To be honest, I don't really feel extremely happy with what I have right now. I guess it's because ever since graduation, I sort of lost my purpose in life. I can do whatever I want to right now, and it scares me. 12 years of education made me used to having other people tell me what to do and where to go. But now it's all up to me. To take up a job or to quit a job, to travel or to stay put, where I want to study, what I want to study... There are so many choices to make and so many consequences to consider, and I really don't know what's the best for me.
The thing about life is that even if you don't know what choices you should make, you have to make them anyway.
If you're wondering, I am not going to stay unhappy with my life. Life is a choice and I'm in the process of putting a routine back in my life, so I can somehow feel like I have a purpose again.
It just takes some time.
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Having no purpose does not mean I can't have an exciting life though! Recently met up with Jingyi and visited Stateland Cafe before the mandatory shopping began. Then College Day came and I went back to get the CCA Award. In between all these events I took a lot of selfies because recently I fixed my fringe and it looks much better now heh. Considering a haircut and dye though.
Also been spending a lot of time with my Sunshine and I only have one word to describe my feelings: blessed. I will always be thanking God (even though I'm not religious and I still am not quite sure who is the real God) for this miracle to happen to me.
Random photos from all over the timeline (I'm no longer particular about the order of anything, including the chronological order of the photographs on this space):
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